Hmmm. It’s been so long since I’ve really checked in here, I don’t even know where to start.
Once again, Christmas has come and gone, and this year, I found myself lacking the holiday spirit. The biggest reason is because I knew that this year, Christmas would be different. Many years ago we started a Christmas Eve tradition of gathering with beloved friends, and this year most of the players were absent.
I knew I guess that’s the thing about life: while traditions are meaningful, life itself is dynamic and ever changing. It’s in moments like this that I am reminded that the control we seek over external events is little more than illusion. In reality, life as we know it can change in an instant, and there’s very little that can (or even should) be done to stop the waves of change. (I’m not sure I totally agree with the later part, but life is teaching me otherwise).
For the sake of honesty, I’ll admit it. I missed my little tribe this year. And really, there’s something to be said for realizing the value of what you’ve “always” had, and maybe, just maybe, taken for granted.