Day 19: Dear Yoga…
Wow, I don’t even know where to start.
You are changing me: strengthening my body, but more importantly, opening my heart.
Do you recall, when we first met, I didn’t “get” you at all. I wasn’t receptive to challenge or correction, but you pushed me anyway. That didn’t go so well, and we didn’t speak for years.
Several months ago, our paths crossed again. I was sick, hurting and desperate. You saw my suffering and you were kind to me. We kept it simple: detoxifying twists. Asanas to relieve bloating and distention. You got me through some long and painful nights. I relied on you to keep me going, but I gave you nothing in return. Our relationship was one-sided: You gave yourself to me. I used you.
And that’s why, now, I’m amazed and humbled by your warm reception. Just weeks ago, you welcomed me back with open arms; no apologies demanded, no questions asked. You witnessed my pain and facilitated my healing. And now with a gentle whisper, you are asking me to grow.
So here I am, wondering if I will finally choose to stay. Together we begin the dismantling of defenses. My being is anchored. Feeling at once firm and fluid, I breathe, and open my heart to the mystery of your grace.